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  • Psychotext 8 Mar 2013 01:15:11 53,855 posts
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    darkmorgado wrote:
    I've been signed off by a psychiatrist on grounds of PTSD, Social Anxiety, Agoraphobia, Depression, ASD.
    BINGO!
  • Psychotext 8 Mar 2013 01:15:43 53,855 posts
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    Ahh fucks sake, here's your post, but on a new page...


    darkmorgado wrote:
    I'm pretty much panicking at the moment.

    I've been signed off by a psychiatrist on grounds of PTSD, Social Anxiety, Agoraphobia, Depression as well as the impact that is having on ASD.

    I've been referred to a department of the local NHS called "changing minds", who apparently specialise in helping people deal with PTSD. I'm now getting more intensive support from the local ASD department and social services have been contacted in order to assess my care needs within the home in order to take the burden away from my OH.

    I'm panicking because I don't want to feel like I'm relying on other people. I don't want to be out of work, and I sure as fuck don't want that fucker from a few years ago to still be having a hold over me.

    I can understand, on the flip side, and after discussing this with the psychiatrist, why he has come to this conclusion though. He didn't just speak with me, he also spoke at length with my partner, my GP, my ASD key worker and accessed my medical records. If I am honest then yes, I think I never really did get over what happened - I just ignored it without dealing with it. I was brought up the old-fashioned, stiff-upper-lip way where you just try and get over things, don't discuss it, laugh things off, etc. I also accept that my alcohol intake has more than doubled in the last 6 months as I have been using it more and more as a sedative to help me sleep. And I was already pretty aware that the panic attacks whenever I left the house was probably agoraphobia.

    All of this means that I now have to deal with ATOS.

    I'm genuinely terrified about that.
  • cubbymoore 8 Mar 2013 01:16:16 36,468 posts
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    Well you could see it as not letting others help (or how you say it, relying on others) was one of the bad ways you tried to cope in the past. Letting others help should be how you decide to cope in the future.
  • spamdangled 8 Mar 2013 01:17:58 27,271 posts
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    Psychotext wrote:
    darkmorgado wrote:
    I've been signed off by a psychiatrist on grounds of PTSD, Social Anxiety, Agoraphobia, Depression, ASD.
    BINGO!
    What exactly is that meant to mean?

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  • Psychotext 8 Mar 2013 01:20:46 53,855 posts
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    You've never heard the term BINGO after someone has collected the full set of something? Seems like you've got pretty much every psychological condition under the sun there.
  • spamdangled 8 Mar 2013 01:22:05 27,271 posts
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    cubbymoore wrote:
    Well you could see it as not letting others help (or how you say it, relying on others) was one of the bad ways you tried to cope in the past. Letting others help should be how you decide to cope in the future.
    I don't trust other people though. I'm pretty much scared of doing that (the shrink says that's a result of the trauma).

    The stupid thing is that it happened several years ago, and I pointed that out to the psychiatrist, but he says that it's common for it to not properly manifest itself until several years after the event in many people, particularly when they are used to hiding their feelings from others.

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  • spamdangled 8 Mar 2013 01:23:10 27,271 posts
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    Psychotext wrote:
    You've never heard the term BINGO after someone has collected the full set of something? Seems like you've got pretty much every psychological condition under the sun there.
    I think there's over 10,000 registered psychological and developmental disorders. And many of those are co-morbid (i.e, they tend to go hand in hand with another one).

    Edited by darkmorgado at 01:23:46 08-03-2013

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  • Psychotext 8 Mar 2013 01:24:58 53,855 posts
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    I'll leave it alone, you're clearly a bit sensitive right now. I'd suggest lightening up but I appreciate it's not that easy.
  • spamdangled 8 Mar 2013 01:26:13 27,271 posts
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    If you go back a few pages, you'll see where I first started talking about this thing.

    In fact, my very, very first post on this forum mentioned it 4 years ago. But that was a clusterfuck so I won't link it.

    But maybe it does mean that actually this has all been manifesting itself over all these years and I've just not accepted that i needed help.

    Fuck knows. You could go crazy trying to self-analyse yourself all the time.

    Edited by darkmorgado at 01:28:08 08-03-2013

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  • cubbymoore 8 Mar 2013 01:27:31 36,468 posts
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    darkmorgado wrote:
    cubbymoore wrote:
    Well you could see it as not letting others help (or how you say it, relying on others) was one of the bad ways you tried to cope in the past. Letting others help should be how you decide to cope in the future.
    I don't trust other people though. I'm pretty much scared of doing that (the shrink says that's a result of the trauma).
    Well it's not going to be easy to do. Otherwise you'd be doing it. Got to be worth trying your hardest though, seeing as how trying to do everything yourself ends up.
  • spamdangled 8 Mar 2013 01:39:18 27,271 posts
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    I'm just used to trying to be cheery, finding something to chat about, burying myself in my interests, etc. Anything to take my mind off what is going on. Cooking, board games, computer games, comics, music, whatever. Anything that I can talk about as long as it is not what is really on my mind. Escapism I guess. A lot of the time I try and fake cheeriness, or try my best to tolerate being around other people because I don't want to hurt their feelings or offend them. Basically, I try to fit in.

    I've been very sensitive to aggression for the last few years (not just on here but in general), or at least what I have perceived as aggression as it has made me feel threatened and isolated. Maybe this is the reason why. I don't know.

    I just wanted to get this out in the open because at the moment I have no way to air my thoughts except to people close to me, who are already involved in it, or to friends who already have their own issues. I thought maybe just venting it to anonymous people on the other end of a copper wire would be a bit cathartic.

    Edited by darkmorgado at 02:24:07 08-03-2013

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  • Load_2.0 8 Mar 2013 06:50:58 18,949 posts
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    darkmorgado wrote:
    If I am honest then yes, I think I never really did get over what happened
    Over Macho Grande?

    No. I don't think I'll ever get over Macho Grande.
  • LeoliansBro 8 Mar 2013 06:53:36 43,284 posts
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    /namdogflashback.gif

    LB, you really are a massive geek.

  • Deckard1 8 Mar 2013 06:56:59 27,265 posts
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    What actually happened to make you have PTSD?
  • Stickman 8 Mar 2013 08:20:04 29,663 posts
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    Should be easy to put a lid on the alcohol intake. Presumably if your OH stops buying it, you won't be able to drink seeing as you can't leave the house.

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  • Benno 8 Mar 2013 08:30:13 9,804 posts
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    Stickman wrote:
    Should be easy to put a lid on the alcohol intake. Presumably if your OH stops buying it, you won't be able to drink seeing as you can't leave the house.
    Smart man!
  • Load_2.0 8 Mar 2013 09:08:23 18,949 posts
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    You just can't get good help these days.

    At least EG can organise a refund for your expo ticket.
  • spamdangled 8 Mar 2013 09:14:44 27,271 posts
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  • spamdangled 8 Mar 2013 09:14:52 27,271 posts
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  • Load_2.0 8 Mar 2013 09:17:16 18,949 posts
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    darkmorgado wrote:
    I'm hoping that by that point I will be feeling a lot better, plus my OH will be with me as always to look after me.

    But thanks, your lack of empathy means a lot.
    No problem temporary agrophobia is a serious ailment and a blight on this great nation that deserves more headlines.

    Edited by Load_2.0 at 09:21:18 08-03-2013
  • nickthegun 8 Mar 2013 09:21:32 58,907 posts
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    darkmorgado wrote:
    I'm hoping that by that point I will be feeling a lot better, plus my OH will be with me as always to look after me.

    But thanks, your lack of empathy means a lot.
    That could be due to autism.

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    I know we say this isn't the place to come for help with emotional/mental issues, but please don't poke those who are feeling a bit fragile. Just let them vent. Thanks.

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  • spamdangled 8 Mar 2013 09:41:46 27,271 posts
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    @sajasanman

    The experience of friends who have gone through that process, as well as what I've seen and read in the news and some of the horrendous anecdotes on here about them has always made me terrified about them.

    From what I've been told, the appeal process takes months of being sorted out, and even if you win the appeal, you go straight back into being assessed by ATOS so you end up in an endless cycle of being declared unfit for work - assessed by ATOS - declared fit to work - appeal - declared unfit for work....

    Etc etc. It sounds like a horrendous cycle of never ending stress and pressure, not to mention the financial impact that must have on people of having what meager income they are on always fucked around because of some profiteering private company and politicians trying to massage figures.

    Edited by darkmorgado at 09:42:09 08-03-2013

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  • spamdangled 8 Mar 2013 09:59:06 27,271 posts
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    While you're in the "assessment" period (the first 12 weeks), you get about 30 a week less than you do by being officially in the "support" group, so in effect your benefit is cut until you win the appeal.

    I haven't actually informed the Job Centre yet that I've been signed off, just because I'm scared of even starting the whole process.

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  • LeoliansBro 8 Mar 2013 10:01:55 43,284 posts
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    Look at it from the other side. ATOS are there to oust benefit cheats, if they get it wrong you have the right to object. But the fact you seem so worried about it suggests that you are a margin call anyway.

    Bet you won't brand them as incompetent, corrupt, self-serving and cruel if they agree with your original diagnosis.

    This sounds more like stress than depression. That's no fun tobe sure. I'm pretty stressed myself, what with my job and all.

    Edited by LeoliansBro at 10:20:44 08-03-2013

    LB, you really are a massive geek.

  • RedSparrows 8 Mar 2013 10:03:15 22,085 posts
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    GET BACK TO WORK LB
  • spamdangled 8 Mar 2013 10:12:51 27,271 posts
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    LeoliansBro wrote:
    Look at it from the other side. ATOS are there to oust benefit cheats, if they get it wrong you have the right to object. But the fact you seem so worried about it suggests that you are a margin call anyway.

    Bet you won't brand them as incompetent, corrupt, self-serving and cruel if they agree with your self-diagnosis.

    This sounds more like stress than depression. That's no fun tobe sure. I'm pretty stressed myself, what with my job and all.
    Not sure what you mean by the words "margin call".

    And it's not a self-diagnosis LB. Read back about 6 or 7 pages and you can see where I already discussed this stuff back at the start of Feb.

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