Biggest plus is that i have saved just shy of a grand worth of money. Its just deciding what to do with it, and whatever i save from now on till september. (When my flatmate returns from being on ship)
Currently deciding on what step to take in my life next whether i just go travelling for a bit or move from cornwall where i'm struggling to find a new job and try my hand in london and spend a few years there ( even if i don't get the job i want there, the enviroment is more conclusive to my photography - galleries, public darkrooms, meeting people etc, and i have a good bunch of uni mates there who do stuff that i like doing, hiking, going out etc)
I have a alarm clock just ticking of at the moment, and i pretty much decided i need to change something, so i guess thats a positive change in my mindset. With these things, opportunities present themselves and suddenly you find yourself somewhere new and everything exciting again.
My overall mindset as been poor though. My sister younger of 4 years, managed to find a job within a year of leaving her uni, really really happy for her, at the same time, it KO 'd my confidence and self esteem big time (4 years this month out of uni).
Photography wise, i had a good month of it in april and done quite a bit of work. Havn't really done much since though. A film i started thinking about filming hasn't gone beyond just brief synopsis and brainstorming. Although i have collected all the ideas i have had on various projects and started doing the same to them.
Going to see Sigur Ros, and Mogwai in june and july. And going up to london to see uni mates as well.
I'm more of a social person who does things for other people, i need to start thinking about myself. But i just get disheartened that it feels like nobody thinks about me.
/sorry to bring the general downer thread to this thread
- Feels as though i lost some weigh (Wasn't big anyway).
- Need to do ANY sort of excersise
- Have been drinking less!
- But been social smoking more
- Try and be more positive or see whether i'm just a whinging arse.
Biggest plus is that i know i need to change something! and although i feel down at the moment i do feel as though i am bubbling underneath and ready to 'GO'
Edited by joelstinton at 13:57:01 01-06-2013